God makes everything beautiful in his own time

picture courtesy of my darling brother, who has an amazing eye for detail...

As I did my devotion this morning, a message I had read (by Bishop Jakes) came to my mind. It said soemthing along the lines of my destiny not being tied to people that left. He went on to say he had the gift of goodbye. That message really touched me when I read it, because I must admit that as distrustful as I am of new people, as soon as I let them into my heart, I let them in fully. I just open up and accommodate them to a tee. So, when the time comes to say goodbye, as it always does, I find it very hard. This is true of ALL my relationships. I've been watching myself closely, and I realize that I find it difficult to let go of people and situations, especially where I perceive an offence against myself. I just hold out for some sort of acknowledgement of wrongdoing, even if they are too proud to apologize. What makes me think I am so big that the whole world and it's brother owe me an apology every time I feel they have offended me? PRIDE. The secular world says pride goes before a fall, and oh have I fallen. Not only fallen, but landed smack bang on my face, exposed, humiliated, vulnerable each time I have fallen. The beauty is in rising up again though. They came out of us because they were not for us... for all the bad boys I have dated, they HAD to come out of me(my life), for all the friends that betrayed my trust, they HAD to come out, for all cheats, liars, dream killers, dream stealers, opprtunists I have come across in my lifetime so far, they HAD to come out, because God is taking me to a new dimension. I needed to go through those pains and hurts so I could learn compassion for people in those situations. Now that the lesson is learnt, it is time to move on to the next chapter of my lifebook. God is not anywhere near finished with me yet, and He alone is able to turn my mourning into dancing, my mess into a message and my test into a testimony. I feel so much pain, I still hurt in places I cannot even begin to describe. There are times when I look around me and ask myself why me? My assurance is that He who knows my past, present and future, who knew me before I was born, and predestined me for great things on this earth KNOWS what I am going through, and will bring me out victorious! This never too early, never too late, but right on time God 'makes everything beeautiful in His own time'... So, when situations come and people leave, I know better than to worry now. I just let go and let God deal with it. Dwelling in His presence